happiness

I feel so happy.
I don't know why today especially but I hope I can reach this happiness any day I want to.
Today wasn't even that extremely special. But it was fun, def. a good day. =)

"She is just always smiling! always happy!" -my manager
"Thanks, I try."

You really do have to try at happiness, I've learned.
Cause it's not just going to land on your lap. As my mom thinks it should, or else you'll think you are unlucky for things, like she does. But I don't think that is the way God planned it.

I'm so thankful and grateful for the love in my family that we've never shared like we do now. Even though we still yell and aren't perfect at all. And for my friends who are there for me in my life and just have fun with me and we love each other. And for the best cutest cousins ever that I get to love and spend time with and my grandparents. Just everyone. Thanks Brian, Jenny, Jina for spending time with me today at the store, meant so much =)

But life feels different. I kept saying recently that I hated that things will never be the same again but in the end i feel like it will be so much better. The way its supposed to be, i hope. I feel like putting God in my everyday life so completely like I'm trying and kind of letting happen and desiring to happen changes everything. I get to share what I know about Him so far and His love in a surprising but awesome bible study with my mom and sis today, at work with friends, with my grandparents, so openly with my brother, and even my little cousins. It is amazing. And today, i dont know about tomorrow, but today more than ever I know who I am and who I want to be and who God is calling me to be right now in this life and I enjoy it. Am i being too deep or not deep? IDK. Oh well, this is my blog. I can say how i feel. Like it or not, it's meeeeeeee.


One week til schoolllllllllll, oh bbbbbbbboy.
Moving everything out of my room is going to be unimaginable at this moment. lol.

LOVE,
x.