Galatians 5:22-23
I've been memorizing this verse this morning! Project has been amazing and i can't even believe the ways every thought and action i have that isn't Christ-like is being convicted. And I can't believe the growth that i've felt in myself that is sometimes hard to see until it gets pointed out from a brother or sister in Christ.
I can't believe that it is the end of week 6, ohmygoshers insane. And so far at project, i should prob add more details but so much has happened since i've last even had the time to blog! But now i am just so excited and so on fire, i cant help but blog. Plus my journal is totally getting filled up like crazy and I use it like every second to put my prayers, notes and thoughts down. But with working almost 35-40 hours a week at dunkin donuts i've realized i'm going to meet and work and be around people who i want to be friends where it isn't easy. Things happen in people's lives and people are different and you just never know, some are grumpy, or struggling with things, others don't care, others joke and pretend to be mean, but i learned once from a friend that pointed me to the Bible something that i always remember! "I hate mean people.""You know what you gotta do? You just gotta love them even more." Thank you friend. :) So, the spirit in me has been pointing out my attitude and my thoughts and feelings/emotions towards things at work and its just been real and genuine and intense.
Other than that, being associate project director and being challenged with this role this summer is just awestriking completely. Like i never would've imagined really being called to this position especially in a house with so many women and men of God. I first thought to myself, how can this be? Me? little ol' weak me who has so much more to grow? But God has used me in so many ways already, and i fight hard because i want it (even though i can and will fight harder for it) and also God passes wisdom onto me as I seek Him more and more. And if He challenged me, then I am right for this and i will love it and embrace it and trust God completely with it and know that it's not me on my own doing this but my decision to live in this role this summer by faith and trust.
Last night, we went to a concert and everyone who went rededicated their lives to Christ. including me! I was convicted of wanting to be in my Bible but not really taking the steps and desires that I needed to fulfill this and DO IT. But from the lyrics of the rappers hip hop Semaj, songs', i learned that IT IS A BATTLE. AND I NEED MY SWORD (Bible) or else how am i going to do it?? I need it. Especially when i'm asking God to show me these things that i need Him to work through with me on so i can be more and more like Him and have a bigger and better heart like His. And i went to work today at 6 am and i still made it a point to read my Bible. And when it got tough at work today, i realized it in time, prayed about it and said, i need my sword! And i made a connection with a co-worker that I love, Jenniffer who was just broken today. When are we not? And also told my co-worker Jose who picks on me a lot that i've been praying for Him so that we can be friends.
God, work in me. Continue working in me. You have blessed me with using me to help lead 5 people to come to Christ. 5 real new brothers and sisters in Christ. And I pray that you work in their lives and bring them closer to You more than our little conversation that You were completely in control of did to them. I pray that you continue to use us even though You don't have to! I pray that you use me to share Your love and Your light with my co-workers by helping me to live by the spirit completely and just surrender to You, Lord. I pray that the rest of hbsp does not fly by and that we can cherish and embrace and grab every single moment left. I love You. Thanks for being You. Thanks for loving me and everyone like You do. Unconditionally.
exxxxxcited for outreach today! :)
Love,
Christina
