Thursday, January 7, 2010

I'm Moving....

I have no excitement here blogspot.
Sorry, it's time to move on.

Hello World @ Wordpress.
http://ohxtina.wordpress.com

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Hello 2010! :)

Hello 2010! Goodbye 2009!

2009 was tough. A lot of rough times, a lot of challenges, some good times, but I love the idea of this fresh new year. This year of graduation, this year of growth.

I'm most excited about letting go of the past. Letting go this necessary but tough last year and looking forward to getting to know God better, falling more deeply in love with the Lord and being committed to this #1 relationship in my life. Being more faithful. This, i desire for the new year! :)

God is good. And almighty and amazing. I wonder how He brought me to where I am today! Just finished a major application to a big thing in life! And praying to see where God will bring me because I will faithfully follow Him to the ends of the world! We shall see!!!

*Fear Paralyzes. Faith moves us forward. *

"The life God directs me to isn't the life I would have chosen on my own,
but it is better than anything I would have chosen on my own. or will choose." :)

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, He is a new creation. The old has gone, the new has come. 2 corin 5:17

Hello 2010!

Thank you Lord.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Ups and Downs

I feel so unstable sometimes. Or all the time.
I'm happy then sad. Then happy and sad.
I know everyone goes through this all the time, prob. Just like me,
but it just feels so unhealthy and I get stuck.

I just can't stand it.
I really just don't know what i'm feeling or thinking or doing these days.

It's not a comforting feeling. I need rest. And break...

:/

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Are you willing to take a walk?

Because then God will do the rest. :)

Just typed up my last update letter about hampton beach that i've been meaning to do for a long while. But I guess it was just in my heart now. Let me know if you want my updates from the summer and I can easily e-mail it! I love you all. Here are some thoughts in my head...

I think i'm going to try to go over what i've learned this summer and do little devotional blogs to keep up. Let's see how this goes! Feel free to follow! :)

From the end of project reflection...

2 peter 1:3-5
Making One's Calling and Election Sure
3
His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. 4Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.5For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge;

"You never know what God is going to do."

"God doesn't call the qualified, he qualifies the called."

"THIS is the cream of the crop. in God's kingdom."
motivated, passionate, in love with God.

Lust can destroy. Passion needs to be controlled.

His divine power has given us everything we need for a Godly life through our knowledge of Him who called us by His own glory and goodness.

"What I use to desire, I no longer desire."
THIS POWER is able to change us!

You let go and the power turns off.

STAY connected to God. The power is through Him.

It takes power to stand.

2 peter1:5-9
5For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; 6and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; 7and to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, love. 8For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. 9But if anyone does not have them, he is nearsighted and blind, and has forgotten that he has been cleansed from his past sins.

powers need to be unlocked. and disciplined! needs to be motivated and committed!

Romans 8:5
5Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires.


Watch what I eat,
and take time to eat.

There is a spiritual battle going on. Share it with someone. Don't keep it a secret.

Secrecy will kill me.

"Make every effort to confirm your calling and election. For if you do these things, you will never stumble." 2 Peter 1:10


I keep on praying to get my passions under control and give them to my God and to be motivated and committed. I pray to surrender totally and love and give grace like He does! I want to love like I loved on project. I want to love with the heart of God. I pray for this. I feel like I'm on the verge of slipping and I don't want to. I need to cling to God. I feel like quietism can totally take over if I don't fight in this battle. With my sword.

Okay, hopefully this feels so good that it will get me motivated to get back into my word. Get back into this life and do as God allows and calls.

<3

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Fighting the Battle with my Sword

“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law.”
Galatians 5:22-23

I've been memorizing this verse this morning! Project has been amazing and i can't even believe the ways every thought and action i have that isn't Christ-like is being convicted. And I can't believe the growth that i've felt in myself that is sometimes hard to see until it gets pointed out from a brother or sister in Christ.

I can't believe that it is the end of week 6, ohmygoshers insane. And so far at project, i should prob add more details but so much has happened since i've last even had the time to blog! But now i am just so excited and so on fire, i cant help but blog. Plus my journal is totally getting filled up like crazy and I use it like every second to put my prayers, notes and thoughts down. But with working almost 35-40 hours a week at dunkin donuts i've realized i'm going to meet and work and be around people who i want to be friends where it isn't easy. Things happen in people's lives and people are different and you just never know, some are grumpy, or struggling with things, others don't care, others joke and pretend to be mean, but i learned once from a friend that pointed me to the Bible something that i always remember! "I hate mean people.""You know what you gotta do? You just gotta love them even more." Thank you friend. :) So, the spirit in me has been pointing out my attitude and my thoughts and feelings/emotions towards things at work and its just been real and genuine and intense.

Other than that, being associate project director and being challenged with this role this summer is just awestriking completely. Like i never would've imagined really being called to this position especially in a house with so many women and men of God. I first thought to myself, how can this be? Me? little ol' weak me who has so much more to grow? But God has used me in so many ways already, and i fight hard because i want it (even though i can and will fight harder for it) and also God passes wisdom onto me as I seek Him more and more. And if He challenged me, then I am right for this and i will love it and embrace it and trust God completely with it and know that it's not me on my own doing this but my decision to live in this role this summer by faith and trust.

Last night, we went to a concert and everyone who went rededicated their lives to Christ. including me! I was convicted of wanting to be in my Bible but not really taking the steps and desires that I needed to fulfill this and DO IT. But from the lyrics of the rappers hip hop Semaj, songs', i learned that IT IS A BATTLE. AND I NEED MY SWORD (Bible) or else how am i going to do it?? I need it. Especially when i'm asking God to show me these things that i need Him to work through with me on so i can be more and more like Him and have a bigger and better heart like His. And i went to work today at 6 am and i still made it a point to read my Bible. And when it got tough at work today, i realized it in time, prayed about it and said, i need my sword! And i made a connection with a co-worker that I love, Jenniffer who was just broken today. When are we not? And also told my co-worker Jose who picks on me a lot that i've been praying for Him so that we can be friends.

God, work in me. Continue working in me. You have blessed me with using me to help lead 5 people to come to Christ. 5 real new brothers and sisters in Christ. And I pray that you work in their lives and bring them closer to You more than our little conversation that You were completely in control of did to them. I pray that you continue to use us even though You don't have to! I pray that you use me to share Your love and Your light with my co-workers by helping me to live by the spirit completely and just surrender to You, Lord. I pray that the rest of hbsp does not fly by and that we can cherish and embrace and grab every single moment left. I love You. Thanks for being You. Thanks for loving me and everyone like You do. Unconditionally.

exxxxxcited for outreach today! :)

Love,
Christina

Friday, June 19, 2009

I'm here for a reason

It's so weird that there's so much going on here.

I think God has definitely been showing me I'm here for a reason.
Or many reasons.

I'm just so glad that even though its hard and challenging and everything,
I am confident in my trust in God's plan for me.

Praying and praying. I feel like i'm turning into a prayer warrior.
Which i want to be. Please pray for our project unity and outreaches everyday.


Oh, Hampton Beach.

Friday, June 12, 2009

Welcome to Hampton Beach! :)

Christina Teng
21 F Street
Hampton Beach, NH 03842
snail mail me :)

WOW. Has it been almost two weeks already?!
Being in Hampton Beach is nothing like I expected.
I actually don't even know if I had expectations at all.
I just know that God was leading me here to give up my summer to Him and ask Him to use me to share my love and my faith for Him. I will try to blog and update often so if you're interested, I would love to hear comments, questions, prayers and anything else!!! especially love! :)

THE WHITE GULL.
This is our home for the summer for all 42 students and some staff members! It's cozy and i'm in love with it already!I feel like i've made so many new friends and that we'e definitely known each other for more than just a little less than 2 weeks! There are 3 floors and I live upstairs in the "penthouse" sharing a room with Camellia, Jen and Kelsey! :) It's like a mini apartment with a balcony and our own kitchen an living room. We also have a lobby that the whole house hangs out in and gets to know each other!!

PROJECT.
So, I guess like many, I knew I was going to be here to grow my faith and share my faith with others but God has already been blowing me away like crazy. We've been so busy with hardly any time to relax, but I love it. Everyone's been job hunting and getting to know each other, grocery shopping and working on continuing support. (Thank you for my supporters, please let me know if God is leading you to support if you haven't already or support even more because I have not reached my required amount for this summer yet! Trusting in God.) But we also have a jampacked schedule like everyday with things to do! On Monday nights we have a weekly team meeting, then other nights we have community groups where we do outreaches, have Bible studies and have fellowship time. We also have women's time night which is my favorite because we really get to learn and spend time with God and hearing about His word how to be women of God, and women that God made us to be. It's a good reflection time also to spend time with Him to get to know Him better and just be in His word. The Bible is so awesome, if you haven't spent a lot of time reading it, just flip it open and I just encourage you to read anything!! It'll blow you away how well God knows us and what we're going through and how He teaches us how to live in the best way.

BOSTON DAY.
We also went to Boston to talk to people and meet people and see the city! It was awesome. On the T - which is the train, I got to talk to a nice lady Rosa about life and she was so thankful for the conversation, it was soooo cute.

MY NEW JOB.
Dunkin' Donuts all the way!! Another important part of our project is to learn how to minister and witness to people we work with in the workplace, so we get jobs to also meet people and learn about others and just love on people. Which I love. I love Dunkin Donuts! I've met so many new people and they're a lot of fun!! It's mindblowing how God has been using me already to just have spiritual conversations at all. Sometimes I feel like it's hard or awkward but it's really not. I love to share what makes me who I am today, being a follower of Jesus and believing He died for our sins so that we can live and know God. I've met Rachel who I can't wait to hang out with! And also went lobster shopping with my co-worker Jo. Then I got to share lobster with the house!

The people here are awesome. I love it. I don't know what exactly God has in store for me but I know that I am growing closer to Him with each day and it is what I desire with all my heart. Thank you for being a part of my team and reading my updates. Please help me pray for my focus to remain on Jesus and how amazing He is. Also to not get distracted and just for my heart to continue to break for the lost, as Jesus says He is the way, the truth and the life. Please pray for God to watch over and heal my friend Robyn who is not well and to be with her in comfort. Please pray for God to be present here in Hampton Beach and move people's hearts for Him.

Love from Hampton!